Vulnerably Beautiful

Ever question if something or someone is worth pursuing? Sometimes we get to the end of the line where we wonder if that friendship is worth the effort or that degree or that relationship. I've been there, wondering where the point was that it was time to give up or give it to God. It is hard to know what to do in those situations. So many people I have talked to and asked about this subject have all come to the same conclusion when it comes to pursuing people and that is this: if the roles were reversed, would you want them to fight for you? Would you want them to fight for the broken friendship or fight to be in that relationship? The more I thought about that, the more I realized that I would. When I think about my relationship with our Heavenly Father, I see all of the times that I have run the opposite direction, or been angry and how He relentlessly pursues me regardless of how far I run. We are given the choice of whether or not we want to follow Christ, but He never stops...

From the point of view of the world, we say blessed are those who have the cutest clothes, the prettiest face, newest phone, nicest car and the most money. We determine how blessed someone is, by the way, they look and things they own. Which is not completely accurate, sometimes the people with the best of everything are the ones who feel the most empty inside. It's amazing what people can hide behind nice things and a pretty smile. This was me yesterday afternoon, fresh snowfall and snow lightly falling means really great lighting for new pictures. So that's what I did. Took my tripod, set my camera up and took some pictures. I would have said in those moments that I felt blessed.  Only a few short hours later, this is me lying in a hospital bed, and would not have said I felt very blessed. When I need to go to the hospital to get pain medication and scans done, it makes me very anxious knowing I have to lay there and wait for it to be done and that I can't move...