vulnerability-- the power behind it.
so i don't know about you, but i suck at being vulnerable. it is not something i am good at and never saw the reason for having to break down and share things with people when people are so inconsistent.
that all changed recently.
since my concussion a couple years ago, i have gotten to see people in a whole new light. chronic migraines, concussion, fibromyalgia, and many more illness' are invisible. when you look at the person with them, they look normal, like they are perfectly fine. when i broke my ankle. everyone gave well wishes and was sorry that i was in pain. when i got my concussion, it was invisible, so people told me how good i looked and that i must be better. at the start, i was okay with that, it wasn't a big deal, i wanted people to think i was strong and recovering well. when things didn't get better, and people still told me that, it really started to hurt me. i started questioning if i was trying hard enough to get better, that maybe i didn't have enough faith to get better and that was why God hadn't healed me yet. As time went on, people who did believe that i was genuinely sick a lot of the time and that i wasn't the same person as i was before, they spoke deeply into my life. they told me that not being okay, was okay. that God didn't heal people on the amount of faith they had. i had my people. the ones that spoke into my life and knew that i had hard days and didn't judge me for it. i also had everyone else, who i still told i was good, who i pretended to always be okay around. when things got worse, i realized that God uses our weakness' to show His power and if i wasn't showing any weakness, it wasn't showing others His power. i decided then, that since i had given my life to God and committed, saying i was living for him, then i had to embrace this. i had to start being vulnerable with people.
AND OH MY WORD. the things that have happened, since i decided to be vulnerable with people have been amazing. once i started sharing, and got over the scary part, other people would share too. they saw that not being okay, is okay. that God has been using me and will continue to in so many ways that i can t even see, but that because of a hard time it showed how much realer God was.
so to the point. vulnerability has so much power. once one person shares, others around feel inclined to as well. once people know they aren't alone, they gain new hope. i used to always answer 'good' to everything that i was asked. i now see that being good all of the time actually hurts people, and that not being okay, can help people in so many ways.
the power that vulnerability has is incredible, but until you are actual vulnerable with people, the situation your in has all the power over you. when you share, you give God the power to work though you and to work though others because of you. it becomes a chain. when people know they can share, the things that come from it are amazing.
every time that i have a bad day because of my health, and my Gramma calls, she always says "if we could just have tied you to the bed that day, none of this would have happened and we wouldn't be in this situation", but it i am being real honest, i wouldn't want that. the things i have learnt, the power God has shown me though prayer and vulnerability and sharing has been amazing. the person i am now, compared to who i was before is so much better.
none of us would ever wish bad upon ourselves, or others, but sometimes the bad is when God can shine through and transform us into the people He has created us to be. we all don't want to be lead into the fire, or the flood, we want God to lead us around it (TAN moment), we don't get to chose that though. hard days come, and i don't like them anymore than the next person does, but each hard day has given me more reasons to trust in God and share with others the closeness and peace that He can bring during those hard times.
being vulnerable is hard, and takes time to feel confident in doing, but the outcome is so refreshing. we aren't the struggles that happen in our life, they don't label us no matter how hard people might try to put a label on us. The only label we need to know, is that we are beloved by the King of Heaven and Earth. that we are His. nothing will ever separate us from Him, or the things He has for our life. God works in mysterious ways, but we need to be open to His working in and through us.
that all changed recently.
since my concussion a couple years ago, i have gotten to see people in a whole new light. chronic migraines, concussion, fibromyalgia, and many more illness' are invisible. when you look at the person with them, they look normal, like they are perfectly fine. when i broke my ankle. everyone gave well wishes and was sorry that i was in pain. when i got my concussion, it was invisible, so people told me how good i looked and that i must be better. at the start, i was okay with that, it wasn't a big deal, i wanted people to think i was strong and recovering well. when things didn't get better, and people still told me that, it really started to hurt me. i started questioning if i was trying hard enough to get better, that maybe i didn't have enough faith to get better and that was why God hadn't healed me yet. As time went on, people who did believe that i was genuinely sick a lot of the time and that i wasn't the same person as i was before, they spoke deeply into my life. they told me that not being okay, was okay. that God didn't heal people on the amount of faith they had. i had my people. the ones that spoke into my life and knew that i had hard days and didn't judge me for it. i also had everyone else, who i still told i was good, who i pretended to always be okay around. when things got worse, i realized that God uses our weakness' to show His power and if i wasn't showing any weakness, it wasn't showing others His power. i decided then, that since i had given my life to God and committed, saying i was living for him, then i had to embrace this. i had to start being vulnerable with people.
AND OH MY WORD. the things that have happened, since i decided to be vulnerable with people have been amazing. once i started sharing, and got over the scary part, other people would share too. they saw that not being okay, is okay. that God has been using me and will continue to in so many ways that i can t even see, but that because of a hard time it showed how much realer God was.
so to the point. vulnerability has so much power. once one person shares, others around feel inclined to as well. once people know they aren't alone, they gain new hope. i used to always answer 'good' to everything that i was asked. i now see that being good all of the time actually hurts people, and that not being okay, can help people in so many ways.
the power that vulnerability has is incredible, but until you are actual vulnerable with people, the situation your in has all the power over you. when you share, you give God the power to work though you and to work though others because of you. it becomes a chain. when people know they can share, the things that come from it are amazing.
every time that i have a bad day because of my health, and my Gramma calls, she always says "if we could just have tied you to the bed that day, none of this would have happened and we wouldn't be in this situation", but it i am being real honest, i wouldn't want that. the things i have learnt, the power God has shown me though prayer and vulnerability and sharing has been amazing. the person i am now, compared to who i was before is so much better.
none of us would ever wish bad upon ourselves, or others, but sometimes the bad is when God can shine through and transform us into the people He has created us to be. we all don't want to be lead into the fire, or the flood, we want God to lead us around it (TAN moment), we don't get to chose that though. hard days come, and i don't like them anymore than the next person does, but each hard day has given me more reasons to trust in God and share with others the closeness and peace that He can bring during those hard times.
being vulnerable is hard, and takes time to feel confident in doing, but the outcome is so refreshing. we aren't the struggles that happen in our life, they don't label us no matter how hard people might try to put a label on us. The only label we need to know, is that we are beloved by the King of Heaven and Earth. that we are His. nothing will ever separate us from Him, or the things He has for our life. God works in mysterious ways, but we need to be open to His working in and through us.
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